Thank you everyone for all your lovely messages and gifts and a special thank you to Sofy and Suki for our lovely lunch today and to my lovely Helena for my birthday treats, you are the best!
My first year in my 30s was challenging to say the least. I struggled mentally, financially, personally… I’ve made MANY bad decisions, I lost friends, I wasted time and money on meaningless things but it wasn’t all bad.
I’ve been home three times, which was one of the things on my bucket list, to visit home as often as possible, spend time with my friends and my family, especially my two sisters who I love to bits. I had the most amazing three weeks in July, visiting friends, sunbathing, swimming, and of course I became I godmother to my little prince, who I can’t wait to see every time I go home. And I also got to spent Christmas at home after many many years. My latest visit in April was just what I needed to help me get through rough times. Some people asked me whether I’d go somewhere else other than home that often but for me is necessary. Just think, how often do you get to see your family? I can only see them a couple of times a year and I wouldn’t change that for any holiday.
Although I’ve been through rough times, struggling with anxiety and melancholy, I made new friends, I had the most laugh one can have at work with lovely colleagues almost every day, I spent endless afternoons sitting at the park with Sheba chatting about life, went to the theatre, watched my first opera, spent hours wandering in London with friends, watched a Midsummer Night’s dream at the Globe theatre at midnight, the most amazing three days in Berlin, Helena’s hen do, the Winchester Jazz festival, Common People with the loveliest bunch, singing with my SingNow friends (I’ll never forget that day we got soaking wet at Holyrood church but we sang until the end!) Go Ape where I faced one of my worst fears with a little help from friends, One Sound 2017, and most of all I loved being spontaneous with Sheba such as our hilarious lunch at the park or our lunchtime venture to Boots trying on perfumes until we found the perfect ones we were looking for or happily crazily dancing with all of our energy until exhaustion and other I can’t share here!
So all in all it hasn’t been a bad year but I learned from my mistakes and I’m doing much better now. I moved to a new place for a fresh start (thank you Chris for all your help, although it turned into a drama/comedy!), I sold my beloved car to a lovely couple as I didn’t use it that much and spent too much money unnecessarily, got rid of my credit card and now repaying my debt so I can in just over a year’s time decide whether I want to get another job or move to another city or another country or go travelling or study… who knows…
And there is a LOT to look forward to for my 31st year already. My best friend is coming back very soon for more adventures, going home in a couple of weeks to have fun in the sun with family and friends, climbing Snowdonia with some of my favourite work people, which will be a challenge- if you want to help for our amazing cause you can find all the details here https://www.gofundme.com/Snowdonia-Superstars-for-Tempo-Wellbeing– , spending a week in Italy (which I can’t believe, I can’t wait!) are some of the things I’ve planned for the next couple of months which for me is a MASSIVE step forward as planning scares the hell out of me.
Thank you all again for my birthday wishes. And thank you to all my friends and family, I love you to the moon and back.